Sometimes there’s so much beauty in the world…

"American Beauty" (Sam Mendes, 1999). 1:44:25.

American Beauty (Sam Mendes, 1999). 1:44:25.

This is it. Combined with Thomas Newman’s unrivalled Any Other Name.
This is exactly the shot in Sam Mendes’s American Beauty (1999) where I realise
there is so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once, and it’s too much, my heart fills like a balloon that’s about to burst…

And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it,
and then it flows through me like rain,
and I can’t feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.

"How are you?" "That has been a long time since anybody asked me that. I'm great."

"How are you?" "That has been a long time since anybody asked me that. I'm great."

"Man oh man oh man..."

"Man oh man oh man..."

"It's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world..."

"It's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world..."

"For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp, watching falling stars..."

"For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp..."

"...watching falling stars..."

"...watching falling stars..."

"And yellow leaves, from the maple trees..."

"And yellow leaves, from the maple trees..."

"...that lined our street..."

"...that lined our street..."

"Or my grandmother's hands..."

"Or my grandmother's hands..."

"...and the way her skin seemed like paper..."

"...and the way her skin seemed like paper..."

"And the first time I saw..."

"And the first time I saw..."

"...my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird..."

"...my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird..."

"And Janie..."

"And Janie..."

"And Janie..."

"And Janie..."

("And Carolyn...")

("And Carolyn...")

("And Carolyn...")

("And Carolyn...")

"And Carolyn..."

"And Carolyn..."

"I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world."

"I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world."

"Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst..."

"Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst..."

"And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it..."

"And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it..."

"...and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life..."

"...and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life..."

"You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry..."

"You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry..."

"...you will someday."

"...you will someday."

American Beauty.

American Beauty. (By now, tears are streaming irrevocably and unremittingly down my face.)

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